Be Still My Heart

The hole in your heart has many jagged pieces that continue to cut you here and there at any given time. All through the nights and days of your agony you bleed profusely. You feel like cattle who have been led to the slaughter pits and left hanging until every drop of life is drained from you.

Sometimes you wonder where you get the strength to make another step through another day. But, you do! You pray another prayer and hope that God can reach to the floor and pick up your request. Life right now is lower than low, and pulling yourself up by the boot straps is not an option.

The words you read from the Bible while you’re trying to find some comfort are just a blur. Your friends are like Job’s friend in that they can’t help but speak many pointless words. No words of encouragement have broken to your wounded heart.

As night falls, your mind in ceaseless thoughts can not give you rest so that you can sleep, and wake fullness becomes the enemy of your physical body. Hope, joy peace, where art thou? Come Holy Spirit, fall fresh on me. Fill me with your power, satisfy my needs. My heart is truly broken and I need a special touch from God Himself.

I know that God is close to the broken hearted. But, right now God it doesn’t feel good, I’m hurting. I’m so glad that situations only last for a season. I know Lord that you have seen me through many rough times, and that you will see me through again.

I’ll get up and try again tomorrow even if I don’t feel like it. I’ll try to pray and if I don’t, would You let the Holy Spirit intercede for me?

Will you send people to speak life into me until I can speak life into myself and others? Would you send me an angel to be my rearguard so that I won’t be taken off the track? And then God will you bless the one who has caused the pain in my life so that your glory may be manifested.

And God, when this miracle is done may I fall down on my knees and give you the praise thanking you Father for never leaving me nor forsaking me. Thank you that you are my Father, and I am Your child. Thank you for loving me ‘As Is.’ I will rest on Your Word and wait for your deliverance.

Psalm 62:1-2 tell us ‘My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken. The focus of this Psalm is us placing all our hope in God. Knowing that God is in control of our lives helps us to wait patiently for him to rescue us. We will get relief when we praise Him through the good and bad times in our lives. Your heart will be elevated from daily distractions to lasting confidence in Him when we truly rest on Him.

Be still my heart and know that He is God.